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Mommy Guilt




I have to admit, there are not a lot of times that I have Mommy Guilt.  I know that I do things to make my son’s life better.  I want him to have all the things that I was unable to have growing up.  My husband and I made the decision that I would work and he would stay at home with our son.  They get to go on adventures together while I am at work and I know that he is well taken care of. I have a flexible job to let me go to his school events (not to mention the fact that I work a mile away from school too).

He got me last night… School starts tomorrow, I was set, had scheduled to come in later and then be able to take him to school.  Unfortunately, the day after I got things cleared, an important all day meeting starting ½ hour before I wanted to be there was scheduled.  WHAT DO YOU DO?

I have NEVER wanted him to think that my job was more important to him.  My mom missed all my kickball games and other events for work.  I wanted to make sure I was available for him.  This is the one time that I have to do it; he spent last night over dinner telling me I should move the meeting. I told him that I didn’t have any flexibility for this and it isn’t a meeting that I scheduled. I think he gets it, but it still breaks my heart.

Reading about how to deal with Mommy Guilt I know that I need to have confidence in myself to know I am making the correct decision. The other thing I get when I read about Mommy Guilt is that I sometimes don’t feel guilty when society thinks I “should”. Which then makes you think, is something wrong with me? I have to believe in myself enough to know that knowing that me doing things for me and being OK with it is OK!  

I am hoping that this won’t be a memory that he remembers forever.  I will be able to be there up until the time they need to leave for school and I have his “First Day” sign ready.  I am hoping that if I leave a little note in his backpack I will be forgiven.  I am pretty sure that he knows I do what I do for him!

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